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Actually, I'm the only human here. You're all bots. Sorry you found out this way.
(This is a joke)
I'm not comfortable sharing the country but it wasn't in North America or Europe.
I have some self-taught programming skills; but I haven’t gotten very far with my projects (IMO).
That's a good place to start. I have heard some successful stories about programmers. The problem is that those people had work experience and higher education (I think it was with the US equivalent of an associate's degree and/or certifications).
How do you make yourself mentally stronger?
Well, usually trying out incrementally harder things while you live in a place you know. Going to school, finding coping strategies with therapy or a support group, a job, etc. But I don't know what options you have available or how much support you need so I can't give you a specific plan.
First you need to find out if immigration is what you want in life and where you want to go. After that you can decide how you're gonna tackle that journey.
Unless you get extremely lucky all of this takes years to achieve. But it's a good motivator.
I've had family members who tried migrating (from a 3rd world country to a 1st world one). They are amazing workers with years of experience but they have no post-secondary education and some didn't finish high school. They didn't speak the language.
It was a terrifying experience to see from the outside. I can't imagine it first hand. Physical laborers are so exploited my family had to come back. Housing problems, they weren't getting payed properly, overworked... all this when they at least had the safety of a contract and visa. I was worried they were suicidal.
Unless you get extremely lucky, try working towards some type of certification and work experience and learning the language. If anything, at least focus on becoming mentally stronger so you can endure that type of hardship.
Why wasn't the genocide apologist removed as well? What type of liberalism is this?