ADHD

Honestly? Forty years of practice, anxiety spikes, external motivations positive and negative, fugue states... and I'm still barely getting by. I just paid $600 of late fees because I forgot to file my state income tax ten years ago. I'm sure I did them when I did my federal, I just... never sent it in? I guess???

I have been raw dogging life without meds almost my entire life. There was a 2 year period in high school I did speed, and then when I went to community college my wife shared her meds with me. The other 40ish years have taught me how to deal.

I have alarms for everything throughout my day. I have a routine. I have specific places to put certain things. When I deviate I am screwed.

Poorly. I'm unmedicated and trying to get on meds.

Before I was diagnosed?

Poorly, very poorly lol

It literally felt like I was try to fill a bucket with sand and the only shovel I had was a sieve.

I'd literally have to wake up 5-6 hours before I had to be anywhere just to make sure I could finish my breakfast and coffee before leaving. And then I'd still more often than not finish eating or drinking my coffee in the car on the way.

I feel you on the "Having to stop a med because of the side effects," before I was diagnosed with ADHD I was diagnosed with anxiety and I tried about a dozen different meds for it ovwr the years before calling that off and just going unmedicated. Funnily enough after my ADHD diagnosis and getting on the meds I am now (Straterra) I've only had 1 panic attack in the last year vs one a week or so. And I'm able to start and finish tasks. It's fucking witchcraft.

Routine, write down EVERYTHING (because anything verbal doesn't register for me), and struggle through it. I've been trying for years to find the right medication, I don't even know the name of the one I just had to stop due to severe insomnia and dizzy spells. Which has been the theme for every single one where the dizzy spells are so bad, it's no better than my scatterbrained ADHD brain. Yes, even Vyvanse made me very dizzy; I was so hopeful for that one..

I don't. I vaguely function for months on end, eventually get overwhelmed and panicky, then consume excessive amounts of caffeine and giggle to myself till the caffeine crash hits and I'm too tired to think.

I recently had to stop taking my vyvanse due to some bad side effects and holy shit I forgot how bad this was

FYI you are probably also dealing with withdrawal in addition to being unmedicated. Getting off of meds after having been on them is a very different experience from never having been medicated.

I used to use caffeine but i stopped a few years ago. During the pandemic i went on adderall because i was struggling to help my kids do online school. I stopped adderall because i moved and adhd'd away my therapist.

Mostly i cope with routine. I eat the same foods for breakfast and lunch most days. I work on unmasking and being radically honest about my struggles with adhd to people around me. I setup auto billpay as much as possible and i cycle through the same few hobbies so i dont waste too much money.

I've recently found that sleep is very important to my body's needs. If my sleep cycle is fucked then my symptoms get wild.

heart exploding levels of caffeine, just keep adding more it works eventually

(do not do this I had to survive college somehow and was desperate)

Chaining dozens of coping methods together helps a little bit, including:

• strictly working with lists. When I do it and it's not on the list & checked off, it doesn't count as done. What's not on the list doesn't get done
• implementation intention: Since my brain refuses "must do now" situations, use a trigger like: "If it's not done by 8 p.m., work on it with a stopwatch for 15 minutes"
• for the list, turn everything into a module. Instead of "do the kitchen", have subitems like "collect all garbage", "sort by food / non-food", "clean surface 1/2/3/floor". For studying & work, a module is always 25 or 50 minutes of full focus, no distractions. When I have to get up to get water or pee, it counts as failed and is not checked off

Yay, life on hard mode.

THC, caffeine, and more caffeine

~~Shame~~ External motivation!
A friend stopped by yesterday and i havent cleaned so fast in such a long time. lmao
Im also preparing to invite a woman into my life and i am not able to do so if I'm a disaster. So i still have more cleaning to do but I've made progress!

Therapy? I react badly to all ADHD medications so I am not medicated for it. What has helped me the most is working through things with a therapist who also helped me with implementing coping mechanisms. Things like pomodoro method (this got me through college!), organizers at “drop spots,” and learning how to self talk made a huge difference for me. It is not impossible to do well without meds…it is just harder.

My wife is desperately trying to find out what medication will work for her…

Drink an abhorrent amount of caffeine.

I run on auto pilot most of the time. I can't forget something I didn't remember to do to begin with. Double, triple, and quadruple check. The double check to be sure and the tripe and quadruple check because I forgot I've already double-checked.

Caffeine, lots.

Badly

As someone who can't medicate my ADHD, even with caffeine because they all either don't help or interfere with my panic disorder which is much, much more debilitating, it is... Not great, but I've mostly found a lifestyle that works for me. I've found careers that I can handle. Maintaining a household alone is... Very rough under the circumstances but it is what it is.

All that said, HIGHLY recommend staying active enough that you are tired at the end of the day and having an alarm clock with a bright light on it, or a dawn simulation ideally with smart lighting, a special alarm clock, or a diy solution with a full spectrum lamp and an aquarium timer (guess which one I did during college). Maintaining a good schedule and waking up in the AM feeling at least reasonably well rested is paramount, everything else goes to hell if that isn't maintained, and if I'm not physically active during the day, no amount of melatonin will get me to sleep within a routine.

I was on vyvanse for years. And I slept about probably 4 hours a night on average. I had to go to adderall. It doesn't work as well, but it does work, and usually I can sleep.

I should never be off meds.

Side note: too much caffeine can weaken bones.

May I ask what side effects? I’m on vyvanse 40/d and love it.

I find that pre-workout mixes with caffeine and creatine tend to help me.

Just worth noting, creatine causes your muscles “soak up” more water so you’ll need to drink more to keep the rest of your body hydrated.

I suppose I cope by having almost 40 years of coping mechanisms that I use to keep me mostly okay. I let my mind fugue in the morning when I wake up. I have a routine that I try to stick to. I have a job that allows me to hyper focus on problems and get the dopamine hit from solving those problems. I don't have to interact with others for the most part to do my job. I spend a lot of time at home, use ear plugs, or headphones etc. if I can't make my mind focus I try to do something else. I take breaks. I set alarms for just about everything. And reminders. So many reminders. I also have a very supportive partner. I'm sure there's other stuff I had to learn to do to mask that I'm forgetting. But for the most part things just work because I put a lot of work into making them work and even then I am not always successful.

Before i even knew i had it, caffeine. One cup of coffee and maybe a soda per day. No more or otherwise it'd make me tired. Its no replacement for meds but other things helped too like keeping notes, getting enough sleep, excerising, and one of the things i still do today, taking the frustration out of daily tasks.

If something bugs you a lot or stops you from being productive, find a way to make it easier or at least less annoying. Problem solve. Its one of my biggest drivers for dopamine hits and making your life easier by just getting rid of little annoyances makes it easier to function overall.

All that said, like others mentioned, I didn't function well before meds. Honestly i feel like i got off easy but its not really helpful to compare your situation to others.

I hope anything from this post helps you out man.

Childhood trauma, caffeine, nicotine. And some positive feedback I have routines. I have a routine for getting ready in the morning, I have a routine for when I come home, I have a routine for night time. When the weekend comes if I have things to do I just load up on caffeine. My work day is filled with schedules and timelines.