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in latin america they were nice to the white passing americans like me that i was traveling with at the time and not so much to me because my words said that i was was sorry, but things like my facial expression; or body language; or intonation said otherwise and i can't imagine how similar situations would work out if i didn't even have the words.

also that and other related experiences over the decades teaches me that the benefit of the doubt comes rare once i've committed that faux pas and the local version of "sorry" by itself doesn't work well if they're angry about the perceived transgression.

i was only looking for vacation

when i have a long list i go with audio novels first and then read written versions if there's no audio version. that way i can "read" through my list while simultaneously working and burning time on social media. lol

I've started with the audio book series entitled: Anti Imperialism of Star Trek Deep Space Nine and then i think i'm going to read theory after that.

i love lucy.

we would all drop what we were doing; get together on the couch and watch it every weeknight when my parents starting enforcing a bedtime to help get them more sleep out of their working schedules.

chrome enshitification made me switch back to firefox after 7ish years of using it as my daily driver and likewise was true for netscape.

those two previous experiences tell me that i need to start making preparations to switch away from firefox; but i can't bring myself to do it because all of the other viable alternatives are chrome based. since google already has begun publicly enshitifying chrome further i think i'll end up going with just about any other browser project that i can find and i think that these two are the two most likely candidates.

are you aware of any others?

my neuro-divergence sometimes causes people to think that i'm an asshole and if i can't speak the local language to explain that; i won't be able to explain away the autism induced faux pas that i created and that can sometimes lead to sticky situations.

i'll technically be "ex-patting" too since i'm an american and like most other americans i never gone past the periphery of the american empire. lol

a japanophile colleague made a similar recommendation in the past and my past discussions since then with japanese people in this country who also co-occupied my lgbt spaces with me, gives me the impression that the mainstream gay community barely exists at all in japan compared to other places like latin america or south asia; but it does have relatively well represented niches of its own that are unique to japan and mostly unknown to the rest of the world like my niches are mostly unknown to the world outside of the american imperial core.

also: my similar discussions with scandinavian expats in this country over the decades paints a fantastic and vibrant picture for lgbtq within the confines of their own american-allied imperial-core walled-gardens. they have everything that the american empire has for lgbtq plus more and it's all a bit different with seemingly endless onion-y layers of niches. my intention of traveling is to leave the american imperial core, so i think that scandinavia would defeat that purpose considering that it's all part of the nato now.

when i binge watch star trek i select episodes to watch based on a topic or theme. i'm almost done watching episodes with portrayals of excelsior class ships and i'm thankful that i watch start trek like this because it provides excellent mental health pauses from my own election coverage binging. the mini mental eye-bleach-like endorphin high that i get when i notice tiny details that i missed when i first consumed star trek as it was released plus the mini nostalgia rushes from the notables times i saw the episodes i selected i for the themed binge; is all sort of like re-remembering trek, but out of order so that i can appreciate it in a different way. i find it keeps old memories alive like: waiting in line for the premiere of movie #6; or the shock of seeing the new klingons in the first movie; or unsuccessfully begging my fiance to let us have our wedding at the star trek experience in las vegas.

i also developed the habit of starting my election coverage binges with democracy now before anything else. I find that it does A LOT to sooth the anxiety i've been feeling trapped by the election and i think it informs my opinions better knowing that everyone's wary of traps and that the best traps are the ones whose targets are unaware that they're inside of one.

i'm aware of this and i bring it up as an example of the concerns i've shared of trying of traveling outside of the imperial core for me.

neuro-divergence awareness within the imperial core is weak at best like it is with my other niche lgbtq identities and it's virtually non-existent in latin america. i've literally have bad experiences over the the decades caused by my neuro-divergence and had to rely on my ability to speak spanish to explain that i meant no offense. i've learned to leverage the entitled/clueless-american-tourist stereotype to "social butterfly" myself out of situations that my faux pas created and i can't do the same thing in french, or vietnames, or thai, or russian, etc.

central and south american history was and is defined by american political intervention/interference in a similar manner to western europe in the decades following world war 2; it's literally the reason why we have things like panama and reaggeton and why life sucks real bad for people right now in venezuela, cuba and haiti. (none of the governments in those countries are complying with the american empire's will so they're being punished for it with embargoes & sanctions and their people pay the price).