I'm gonna give you a little tough love: I think you need therapy.
Like, every week you put a post about how you don't think you're passing and you're ugly, and every week we all try to affirm you. You have to start loving yourself, and we can't help with that. You need professional counseling to find the root of your self-hate.
I get feeling ugly and unwanted. My wife left me a month ago, and, recently, I've been trying to find companionship. But, either people want sugar parents, or I get no f'n matches.
I think someone reported me on bumble for catfishing, and one of my pics was moderated, and I was FORCED to do a verification pic. And now, since my full face is on there, I've went from 150 matches to..... 0. Yes, it's a slap to the face. But girl, beauty comes from within, not without. If you keep not wanting to put in an effort and looking like shit because you DON'T put in effort, well, we can't help you. All these pretty faces get up, look in the mirror, tell themselves they are badass bitches who don't take shit from no one, put their makeup on, and face the day with a grimace and a smile. Cuz the world IS going to try to tell us we aren't real or we aren't good enough, but, goddammit, they're wrong!