ADHD

Yeah, like I dunno, I think a lot of things I do by accident with my ADHD are super cool. But it definitely hurts more than it helps, and I don't think that's just because "we live in a society". This post feels like huffing a suffocating dose of copium.

• "Oh, sorry, I heard literally every word of what you just said, but my brain encoded nothing."
• "My sleep schedule is casually off by like five hours because I lost track of time hyperfocusing on learning about competitive Jenga until 4 AM."
• "I know I could have been doing things, but I had this thing I needed to be at in 8 hours, so I just couldn't focus on them."
• "I either lose everything or create an intricate, tedious framework for where I keep everything at all times."
• "I struggle immensely to cope with stress in a healthy way and have issues with my temper."
• "If I can focus at all, it will be on exactly one thing, either for unhealthily long periods of time to the detriment of everything else or for so briefly that I accomplish nothing before moving on to the next dopamine rush."
• "I have a much higher risk of substance abuse because my body is starving for dopamine."
• "I have trouble keeping promises I've made to other people because they vanish out of my mind."
• "I constantly miss small details and need to quintuple check everything I do."
• "My priorities are constantly fucked, and I consistently put off everything until the last minute."
• "It often feels physically painful for me to focus when it's not on the first thing my brain decides it wants to do."