lockedcasket

joined 1 year ago
[–] lockedcasket@kbin.social 3 points 1 year ago

Nov of 2019 for me. I am quite happy i was able to quit before COVID hit. I probably would’ve drained my account having to stay indoors 24/7. I didn’t even notice (neither did my partner) the signs that it was getting out of hand. I never noticed how bad my hands used to tremble when trying to steady a knife. At my peak it was close to every other day and I easily would’ve upped it had my recovery time not prevented it.
I was forced to quit due to my severe anxiety getting so out of hand that I had trouble leaving the house and my insides starting hurting immensely after having only one drink.
I do miss the taste quite often and just being able to go out and have a beer or so with friends. Unfortunately in the end I was never good at just having ‘one or two.’