joulethief

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[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 8 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago) (2 children)

I do! I won't cough or vomit, but there will be days when I, completely out of the blue, feel miserable as hell, close to crying, capable of nothing more than lying down. The next day I'll feel fairly fine again. It's kinda hard to pinpoint where these feelings are coming from though for me it feels like it's mostly work related, as in "I don't want to live in this capitalist hellscape" or "Why would I waste 8 hours of precious lifetime each day when I can barely function for more than 2"

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 1 points 3 weeks ago

I always feel bad about smoking cause it feels like an attempt to "escape" the guilt and do even less, but honestly everytime I hit my vape (no joints, they make me go straight back to the couch) I suddenly get the urge to do anything productive, I might even consider doing something I enjoy, such as hobbies (that I just can't make myself do when sober, god knows why)

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 4 points 1 month ago

That looks so crunchy!

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 9 points 1 month ago

That's how the journey begins

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 32 points 2 months ago (2 children)
[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 4 points 2 months ago

That sounds awesome! I doubt there is but need to look for something like this in my area!

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 2 points 2 months ago

It's the same thing for me. There's a good chance I'll do something productive but I tend to get jittery as well.

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 3 points 2 months ago

Danke für den Hinweis, das war mir gar nicht bewusst!

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 6 points 2 months ago

Oh my god, the distractibility at work without (or even with) coffee in the morning is so real. I even get the "buzz" feeling that you describe which can feel very unnerving at times.

I don't think I drink that much, at work its usually one in the morning and one right after lunch to avoid the food-induced coma. Max 1 or 2 on the weekends. Can't imagine going a full month without it though, lol.

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 5 points 2 months ago (4 children)

I have checked, and there's really only one that specializes in adult ADHD. Already called them but I have to wait until the waiting list for 2025 opens in december.

I got an immediate appointment through 116 117, that was the worst therapist I've ever had the pleasure to meet. Brushed off ADHD as a "Modediagnose" (not sure how to translate this, negatively connotated trending diagnosis?) and we thankfully never talked about any further appointments

 

First off: I am still undiagnosed. I've followed the ADHD topic for more than a year now since I seem to match a whole lot of symptoms and behavior patterns. An official diagnosis will most probably still take another year. I live in Germany.

One thing that got me wondering was caffeine. As I've heard, drinking coffee will make ADHD folks not feel any more awake, maybe even a little tired.

While it doesn't make me feel awake as well, I very vividly remember my first coffee a long time ago that caused a massive outburst of productivity when all of the time I was known for being 'lazy' and distracted. However the effect quickly diminished with each subsequent coffee over the next year.

Isn't this a contradiction though? If I actually had ADHD, why did coffee have this awakening effect on me back then?

[–] joulethief@discuss.tchncs.de 13 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) (1 children)

Dumb me thought the dogger was the one saying "huh?"

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