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Lol - I know, right! But then I feel like you'd need both sides of the story. Having only the ones I received and not the ones I sent, it's a little hard to piece them together (especially when they're not dated). But yeah... the majority of the ones I've kept were from what I call my "big ex", when in reality we were only together for a short time, and it was a very one-sided relationship, and then I met my wife and we've been together for closing in on 20 years.

It was a time. That's all I guess I can put it down to hahah.

True. There's no chance of recapturing that moment at all. Only some weird simulacra (which, if pulled off right would create its own moment). But gods! To go back to some of those exact moments. Even the painful ones that, so many years removed seem somewhat trivial yet the scars are still there.

What's interesting is that it's a box of stuff from before I was married, and yet I've still managed to add things over time from when my wife and I were together. Old student cards and metcards with notes written on them and cheap bracelets... So even if the box itself was a time capsule of a personal bygone era, there's been a time leak? It's kind of cool.

It would be so much easier if it was just simple accepted that this happens... that's the one thing that I hold out for is that we'll eventually get to a point in our culture where we no longer actually have to explain ourselves. Thankfully we're moving but it's at a remarkably slow rate, at least slow enough that it feels at times to have stagnated somehow backwards.

Ooo! I'm out of the loop - what did you guys end up getting?

I wish this kind of ill feeling was better supported

I do wonder whether we'll get to that point. I hope we do. And I wonder whether we'll see advancements enough where we can point to something and say "see, this is what's wrong with me right now". Having something like a sprained ankle or infection is easy - they're visible signs of why we're not physically able to do something. But if there was like a... I don't know... some kind of test that showed a serotonin imbalance (for example), you know?

Just perused a bunch of old letters - and I mean like, 20+ years, from when I was in high school. From friends that I no longer speak with. I distinctly remember the giddy feeling of getting mail back then. Found a learner's permit from someone that meant a HUGE amount to me, who gave me their Ls when they got their Ps.

I do have to wonder if they've kept my replies.

Or does it even matter? As fleeting as those moments were, they left a lasting impression on me. They shaped who I was to become. Maybe it's the same for them, maybe it's not.

I'll be there in a month!

I am definitely not looking forward to the humidity ... hoping it cools a little by mid-October. But it's a small price to pay to be in one of my favourite places on this planet.

What are your plans while you're there?

I will never understand fully how people like Y get promoted to positions when it's clear they're not fit to manage a loaf of bread. Like... I get why/how they end up in those positions, but the whole corporate model (which also extends to government because government runs everything like a business these days) is to fail upwards, get to a position where you can't be moved, and then repeat the same mistakes with those beneath you.

(I know this is from yesterday but thought I would reply anyway - sorry for the lateness)

That whole life admin piece is the real kicker, huh? Especially when family is to be considered - whether it's older or younger family members, those that need that little bit of extra time (as in, anyone that isn't fully independent) really does end up chewing into the other time you would use to do things like, you know, live life. That's what I don't understand about a lot of the debates going on around the world where the birthrate is dropping - people don't feel they have the adequate time to raise a family. Couple it with the other side of the sandwich where you also have to help out older family members who aren't nearly as independent as they were when we were younger, and suddenly you're caught in the middle.

Yeah that's where I'm at. In the past I've been pretty vocal because we were always told "it would be for the betterment of the team's success and longevity" and what not. But when you start seeing the same issues it's like, well... why the fuck do I bother?

Torn between providing feedback on the project I'm currently working on and not bothering because it'll fall on deaf ears anyway (and ultimately, do I care - it's just fuel for the fire when it comes to eventually getting out of here).

If you had the choice, what would you go for:

1. Increase of pay to relieve cost of living pressure
2. Decrease in work hours (but not pay) to increase your work/life balance

I know for me it's the latter but that comes from a position where cost of living, while putting a bit of pressure on me financially, isn't my biggest concern. I've lived frugally before and can do that but seeing my hours slip away while companies make big profits off of my work isn't fun.