I didn't know this is like Beehaw where you need to come hat in hand with an introductory essay before you can ask a question.

Fine, I apologise for not saying Hello, I was tired. But if you need more than that, then well I'm not your person. I was in the scifi thread, got upset, then realised I should ask the other side as well. I was trying to get a picture, couldn't get it, we both said/agreed the debate is over, so I left because I was getting more tired and upset and didn't want to say something bad and frankly got worried that someone would make it about me, like it's here. Guess that's wrong?

I wanted to sleep on it, but when this meme showed up, I tried to recap the situation here as neutrally as possible for people, tried to avoid saying who is right (ed: at first at least. Stress on "tried", whether you believe it or not.), didn't call out any particular admin, told people to make up their own mind, and i'm still the bad guy. I really don't know what you expect from someone to recap the situation. "The great diligent admins banned the toxic harasser who's been nothing but spewing vile", was that what I was supposed to write?

Despite what you may think about my motivations, I don't have any stake in this other than trying to help make Lemmy a good platform, but for quite a while it's been pointless due to all this toxic positivity where everyone has to walk on tiptoes.

If you want to accuse people of twisting words, you need to look into the mirror as well, Antik. As you say, I talked to you on Matrix and couldn't get an answer to a question I asked 3 times, and then you deliberately misinterpret what I say.

So also don't tell me that I don't try to communicate, when I did exactly that. And you don't know what I do to coordinate with other people around Lemmy. I don't talk to admins because I don't want to bug you people with every little thing when I'm sure you're busy with other stuff and everyone is trying to talk. And I literally can't use Discord because it's a broken POS. Yet I still was in your Discord server before you had this official one.

All I wanted in this thread is to provide information to people who didn't know what happened. As accurately and sparsely as possible to let people make up your own mind, and I definitely don't think I twisted anything, much less the timeline. You say I misinterpreted things because I don't see it from your perspective.

Whatever, we are all humans, have our own point of view, but don't accuse me of sensationalism or some other motivations. That's like, one of the last thing I ever want, and I don't like it when people accuse me of motivations that are completely off. Like what do you think I'm doing, trying to take over the server or what would be the point of sensationalism and transforming reality?

I don't even "feel the certain way" about the admins, I told you that you do a fine job in general. But true, there's a general attitude on Lemmy that tends to put a sour taste in my mouth, and I've always tried to do my part to not be a part of it. The "don't say the wrong thing or you'll get banned" and "suspect everyone is out to just make drama" among those issues.

And of course as a mod I know what a fine line that is. Shiit, when I talked to my co-mods about this thing, the first thing I asked was if I'm not hypocritical. I try not to be. So please try to not look for the worst in people. Most are just trying their best to make this site a better place, just like you, and everyone is passionate about different things.