Sombyr

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I like your positivity.

Luckily, I am happy most of the time nowadays, just, y'know, in spite of my disorder.

This is what I do. If I don't want solutions, I always start with "This is just a rant, I don't need solutions, but..."

Usually that exact quote, so it's completely unambiguous. If I didn't start with something like that, 99% chance I'll be okay with presented solutions.

As somebody with schizoaffective, I don't understand where you're coming from saying it means I'm the only one with power over myself. In fact, I've found even after being well medicated I'm incredibly easy to manipulate. All you have to do is tell me somebody's trying to control me and instantly I've spun a 2000 foot deep web about how they're doing it. Then you just tell me you have the solution and suddenly I'm eating out of your hand.

And my emotional barrier is paper thin. I only look unaffected by things. In reality if I'm the slightest bit scared or upset, I'm breaking down inside and spinning another web to fill in the cracks. My whole existence is built on delusions and lies I've built up to keep myself together, such that even now that I'm in a place where I theoretically could start breaking them down and rebuilding properly, I won't, because I'd fall apart, and I can't handle that.

I've decided to just be happy being fucked up. Not because that's right, but because that's the only thing I can survive.

Unfortunately, don't think we can do any of those to any significant effect. We're both on medicaid and non-taxable disability income. In other words, we don't usually legally have to file taxes unless we had some other kind of income that year because it's just gonna be a long string of zeros.

What we can do though is file for disability as a married couple, then we can legally save up a lot more money in exchange for being paid slightly less. The requirements for that are just living together and "holding yourself out as a married couple to the community you live." Well, actually, there is a bit of awkwardness with the wording last I checked that accidentally makes it only apply to heterosexual couples, but I'm sure they legally have to apply the rule to homosexual couples as well. We'll see anyway.

I believe we also have the same visitation rights as a married couple if we're ever hospitalized, which is helpful considering we've both found ourselves hospitalized as a result of our disabilities a few times. I'm not certain about that though. We had quite a distance separating us every time that's happened so far, so haven't had the opportunity to test that.

I hate the whole "its" being converted to "it's" no matter what thing, but what I hate more is when I teach the keyboard a word, and it STILL won't let me use it. Taught my keyboard "that'd" and it would autocorrect it to "that's" every time. And unlike other words, if I went back and manually corrected it back, it wouldn't leave it, it'd force it back to "that's" again and refuse to let me change it. Come to think of it, it did that with "it'd" to "it's" too. Eventually I just switched to a different keyboard with much less aggressive autocorrect, since I still need the autocorrect to type with any semblance of speed due to minor coordination issues.

My old keyboard abruptly started autocorrecting more typos into what I was saying than it corrected toward the end anyway. Probably some shoddy attempt to implement AI auto correction.

Luckily, I did look up the laws for my state, and legally we aren't technically married, but we do have the right and sometimes the obligation to apply for some marriage related benefits. It's weirdly inconsistent.

I wouldn't know. My wife's the only person I've ever dated. Probably wouldn't just do that with random dates though. My wife and I knew eachother for a while before we were dating and got close even before then. That's why I was comfortable calling her my wife. I was confident it'd last. Even then it wasn't until a while in the relationship that we started doing it.

Plus we'd been getting mistaken for a married couple quite a lot, so I figured why not just act like one? Takes off the pressure to actually get married too early, too. After all, what's there to gain that we can't gain without it?

It thoroughly confuses me that many people have come to the conclusion that people saying "closeted trans people do X thing quite often" actually mean "all people doing X thing are trans." I don't know how half the replies here have come to that conclusion.

This meme is reductive, only talking about it like it'll be either a trans person or toxic cis dude, but it's a joke. Jokes need to be some level of reductive to work. Otherwise you're just describing a funny situation in real life. (Also, reread the meme. They never say those are the only two options, they just say those are two possibilities. That's not the same thing.)

But yeah, offering to help somebody who you think may be trans acquire resources isn't a bad thing just because the majority of people won't end up needing it. Just politely decline it if you don't. Nobody's trying to force you to be trans. They're just trying to help the people that are.

You'd hate me then. I'm not even married nor engaged to my wife. We just call each other that because it feels nice.

Every linux distro I've used, and every device I've used them on, I've had to do hours, sometimes days of googling and editing config files just to get the audio to work right. Then half the time I update and it's broken again.

I'm a major linux newbie though. Not in terms of actually being new, but in terms of having no clue how to fix basic things.

As someone on the far older end of gen Z or the far younger end of millenial, depending on where you draw the line:

I hate sex scenes. I have some personal issues however that may affect my judgment. Trauma and such. Don't wanna see sex unless I was fully mentally prepared for it, which I just can't be if it's shoved into some random movie, regardless of if you warn me in advance.

It might seem odd, but I wonder if the almost unavoidable overexposure to porn from a very young age elicits a similar response in a lot of younger people. The fact that for a lot of your life, sex is a forbidden thing you have to sneak around to indulge in, and which the one form you have exposure to, porn, carries the risk of addiction. It seems like it'd leave an impression on your mind that it's a scary thing you have to hide, which I could see eliciting some kind of trauma response when suddenly it's everywhere and you're still stuck feeling like you have to hide it.