Melbourne

Oh man, I'm so embarrassed. It was my birthday yesterday and many beers and cocktails were had. In my drunken stupor I mistakenly texted the word 'fuck' to my mother-in-law in the UK. I was mortified when I realised but it was too late, she'd already seen the message. I am cringing just typing this.

Goals for today

Chuck a sickie - done

Grab coffee and pastry from Lebanese bakery

Purchase new Assassin's Creed game

Get high and play new game

I has done a pizza

Was hot only got half way through rest is for tomorrow.. had jalapenos, that bullseye sauce and some home fermented habanero sauce.

Hawt.

Have my start date for the new job!!! One last fuck you to my current head is taking a week of annual leave and peacing the fuck out.

There's a guy I work with whose lunch becomes a community experience very often.

He's Korean and his wife is an excellent cook, so the transition from "his lunch" to "Food For The People" is swift

Holy shit....it's only 1030 and my goals have been achieved.

I fucking rule

Tried talking to my parents about how shit my mental health is.

I only got to talking about how I feel, not some of the things that were bothering me and was met with,

"Grow up!"

And

"Oh no, is an ant crawling on you again,"

And

"Just get off social media," (which I have reduced my intake of)

So I don't know if I'm just bad at communicating how I feel. I think it's because I got emotional, and that made them might’ve made them feel threatened.

Today turned to shit. I'm going to sit in the sun until I feel better

The "no" voting reply guys are relentless and, call me paranoid, it's hard not to conclude that we're being subjected to some kind of large scale attack.

And could we just be the testing ground for disinformation campaigns that will really kick off for the 2024 Presidential election?

Shoutout to the 2 people at woolies just then who were displaying majestic coinslots looking for pasta sauce on the bottom shelf and the horrified older couple walking past. You made my day.

Also this Pelargonium thing is in full swing

PSA: Today I found out how to cook easy peasy cheesy crusted crumpets. And they are YUMMM. Strong recommend. Perfect with a light fruity white wine, or possibly a crisp light beer.

I saw a young asian man today wearing a red robe (silky or satiny) with a thing black belt and a silver or white cirular embroidery of a dragon or Phoenix design on the front. It was over his normal clothes.

I was with my son, in the car, on the way home from his martial arts class. We both noticed the man and decided he looked like a mega cool modern warrior monk. Going shopping (he had his phone and a personal pull-along shopping trolley).

Maybe he was going to or from some traditional performance or practice. Either way, he looked cool, triggered our imaginations and made our day.

I wanted to say something important regarding aliens and climate (we're fucked) and shit but I think my true belief is in carbohydrates I need these carbs.

Exercises completed. Loving the intense 5 minute workout, but I know it'll get progressively longer. Did some shopping for Mr Ps birthday lunch/dinner tomorrow (he wants roast chicken) and some extra gifts and cards, gift wrap etc. Made sausage rolls when I got home, which I haven't done in a while, while the Elder narrated The Walking Dead to me as I cooked. Elder loves my sausage rolls, I made them party sized and he had about 8 of them! Sent some in to MIL. Did a couple of loads of washing. Then showed Miniest how to make garlic butter and then turn rolls into garlic bread. She made me a coffee all by herself! 🥹 I tried to keep busy because I'm so used to working Fridays and I didn't want to think about it too much. Mr P will go out for a smoke at some point and we'll wrap the gifts.. I love birthdays (with the one exception being my own. I just feel awkward, and then it seems to be over fairly quickly).

I took leave this week with the aim of doing things around the house and sorting the very cluttered shed, but the weather has been against me and yesterday I saw a rat going into the shed.

Not scared of the rat but I’m a bit worried if I disturb it, it might think that coming into the house is a good idea.

Taking a jolly tram to my appt this morning, trying to feel a bit more Yay Melbourne and less depressed than yesterday. The tram drivers changed over and were so relaxed and cheerful, and the new driver somehow fixed the PA system so it stopped saying "Th' nkkrd ... p.. s... sr.. str..." There is some sun out. It's relatively relaxed and calm at this time of the day. The people are diverse and friendly. There is a vibrant range of eateries and shops on Bridge Rd (it's a bit quiet but still cool). OKAY BUT THE SENSE OF SAD IS STILL OVERWHELMING AND PERVASIVE

E: I paid too much for a coffee and breakfast bagel but NGL it has improved my mood temporarily. Gotta pop into Kmart for one of those shower squeegees and I might walk all the way home after that, 3km is a good bit of walking

Cats are dying, to avert tragedy I better dash to the supermarket to get their favourite food

Neighbours irrigation system has either failed or just been left on. Their front garden is basically flooded and they're away at the moment.

Same neighbour which destroyed my shed wall and hasn't bothered to build a retaining wall.

My mind is conflicted. Do I care or do I not care.

But I do think there are lessons here.

1. Be on good terms with your neighbours
2. A tap at 600kPa with a pipe diameter of 12mm if left running will cost you $1500 a week at current yarra valley water rates

Yesterday was abysmal. Lost an earbud tip, lost one of my earrings, got stuck in the rain, but I walked 11k steps AND that stool I bought was such a brilliant idea!

But time for PAX day one, hope y'all have a fantastic day!

Melbcat is being so cuddly and cute. She’s not happy that she’s not allowed outside though, she wants the sun. Unfortunately if she absconds I’m not up to chasing her, and fishy fertiliser went on the plants.

The vegie seedlings have spent their first few nights outside. The first night was an accident due to exhaustion but after seeing they didn’t get eaten they are now tentatively outside plants. (This may change when I add the next wave of spinach seeds. Snails seem to smell new seedlings.) Edit: They're getting their second leaves! They probably enjoyed the rain even if it washed out the application of Powerfeed.

The watering can bothers me. Spraying the contents everywhere from a decent hole during use is a problem. I’m deciding whether to complain and get a new one or just patch it with Sugru to avoid plastic waste (which means another order and another delivery fee - and will the patch stay in place?). I wish I could just physically go buy shit myself to avoid having constant issues.

I’ve also frozen up on art. There’s a lot of informal support and resources for learning cartoony or anime style art but I don’t really like that style for myself. I like fine art. But it’s pretty intimidating to want to be that good. Where do you start

It's been a long day and the funk has not quite cleared but I did, very slowly, get dinner organised in between getting a FRL ticket and looking up car rentals. Chana dal with a scrumptious tadka and guar bean with chickpea flour and ajwain seeds (!).

Watched The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar (arrrr) because of my intense love of the book growing up, even though I honestly don't like most Wes Anderson films. I feel so wrapped up in warmth and coziness and genuine nostalgia.

me: IMMA GONNA DO ALL THE THINGS THIS WEEKEND

deluge: OFMD s2, Foundation S2, The Bear, School of Chocolate, Lower Decks, Loki S2

.....fuck

Thank God they've gone. I love my dog and all but if he didn't bite people he would've gone too.

Happy Friday everybody and cheers 🍹

I too encountered fresh poop on the road.

It's always adorable when you see protests walking around Docklands as if there is anyone around to notice/be disrupted (he says, having noticed them while getting lunch).

There was a group of about 20 of them half-heartedly banging on a drum and yelling something indecipherable. They seemed to be from the United Workers Union (yes.. UwU..) and I think I heard them say the word respect.

Bless them. I hope they're enjoying the sunshine on their day off.

My car won't start. Probably just the battery but I was planning on buying some supplies for tonight since the others will be going to the Weezer concert. Ah well no wine for me. I'll just have a vodka or two instead.