I've been lurking here more lately, but I haven't been completely absent. It's been around a year since I joined lemmy, and just over a year since I came to the conclusion that I am indeed trans.
It took a while, I've had a few big steps up in feeling comfortable with being trans. I spent 6+ months on a kick of "I'm not cis/I might be trans" and a bit later to "I'm trans, but embarrassed about it" but in the last couple of months keep getting more, almost, proud to be trans. A couple months back I finally accepted calling myself a trans-woman. Still a bit of a shock to me 😅
I finally started pulling the trigger and started buying some stuff from the women's dept, mostly just lounge and sleep wear. But feel somewhat less uncomfortable about even looking at it.
I told my therapist a couple months back I had started more seriously researching hrt and she asked how it felt. I said something like, "nervous, but a little excited.." more recently, it's been more like "excited, with a little bit of nervous. Like waiting in line on a new roller-coaster"
My spouse had some struggles at first, and is still also figuring things out with me, but sounds super accepting and has talked about hrt and other ideas as if it's any other typical big relationship topic.
Also, lately, euphoria-wise, I realized, I fucking love sleep shirts and sleep dresses! It's been just over a year since I cut my hair and occasionally, it sits around my face just right I can see a woman beginning to appear! ☺️ Its getting long enough to be able to do the little head shake/flip to get the hair out of my eye and it's kind of euphoric to be able to do that.
ANY-WHOSE how are things going with the rest of you girls? Any new, unexpected euphoria lately? Any tips or tricks? I feel like I'm past so much fear and almost ready to come out to some people
Oh! BTW, I did actually come out to an old friend and an old coworker who both understood and accepted, which was awesome!
Edit: also, fun fact! I have red hair. And about as much body hair as is possible. I've been trying to remove it, never really liked it, convinced myself I was fine with it. I'm not anymore. Either way! Found out from an estatician that apparently redheads have deeper rooted hair. 🤷♀️ Also! I already knew redheads were less sensitive to anesthetics. So, I have tons of body hair, deeper rooted hair, and numbing stuff doesn't work that well... It fucking *sucks" but I'm trying my damndest to power through.
my boobs are starting to show a lil :3 mixed feelings, though, what with the, uh, climate being as it is. guess i'll keep wearing baggy stuff until i can get out of here. not much has changed, face-wise, but i guess my visage has always been somewhat androgynous. oh well, i haven't been on E that long, anyway.
my partner is coming to stay with me for a month ❤ they'll be arriving tomorrow evening. when they leave, i'll be going with them, to stay at their house in Spain for a month. exciting! scary, also. i'm all kinds of disabled, so having to fly back on my own worries me terribly.
i've come to the conclusion i wouldn't mind the body hair i have, as long as i get a body that's feminine enough. guess i'm like... a nonbiney woman? i think that's prolly the best i can do. fuken h8 my facial hair, though, but i'm working on it.
i wish you all the best on your journey, friend ❤
I'm very fuzzy still on the idea of non-binay¿but my guesses based on what you've described, I would think more enby than either/or. I just hope you're comfortable and accepted as you feel comfortable.