I‘ve had a phase in my life where I was really trying to see the socialism in China, but I just can‘t find it. I wish someone would explain to me for real, it might have been there decades ago but right now? What is even socialist about it?

See for example: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Labor_relations_in_China

How anyone can read this and not see the state capitalism idk.

Then also they got tang ping just like we have antiwork and I mean, for all of democracies ills, at least I‘m allowed to have a negative attitude towards work and it‘s not getting censored off the internet as a danger to the state.

I have a few communist friends and here they try to achieve socialism through democracy and even have some local successes (Graz KPÖ mayor!), but even though they are not like tankies, have some blind spots there where sometimes I wonder if I‘d be in trouble if they got a dictatorship going (myself being more Anarchist). So the tankies hurt their efforts by association, sucks.