overview for pixeltree

The dragon's pet in c/dragons@pawb.social

[–] pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 month ago

Tbh I'd love to be a dragons pet

Does anyone actually use the windows key on their keyboard as intended by the OS? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.world

[–] pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Also if anyone comes here and posts “dOnT uSe wINdoWs,” you really are cute.

Don't use windows?

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Anon wants more pizza in c/greentext@sh.itjust.works

[–] pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 5 points 1 month ago

When home is more depressing

ourgasm in c/femcelmemes@lemmy.blahaj.zone

[–] pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 30 points 1 month ago (3 children)

Too adhd/social anxiety ridden to go out and meet people, apps are terrible, but it's for the best, because one of the very few times I actually had contact with someone they gave me herpes, and I'm way too depressed to be around. So, uh, yeah, I need help but it's not like anyone really can help. It'd be lovely to be intimate with someone again but I'd feel bad for anyone I let close enough for that. Sorry, overly depressing, you just kinda caught me during a crash and I'm desperate to let it out somewhere.

lonely rule in c/196@lemmy.blahaj.zone

[–] pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 month ago

Yeah I really wish. It's just not going to happen though. I don't go anywhere or do anything. I just sit around and shovel stimulation into the black hole inside myself at an unsustainable rate to try to distract myself from the fact that that's all things will ever be for me, that's all things ever can be for me. I'm so tired and I desperately just want to give up. Even when things are ok and my mood isn't in the dumpster it hangs over me. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm sick of being a barely functioning human being. I'm just so tired and I want to turn it all off. There's things that I would like to do or have or be, but they just aren't going to happen. I'll never have someone that cares for me. I'll never be able to actually stick with a hobby I enjoy. I'd love to actually be a person I enjoy being, but THAT'S certainly never going to happen.

I can't kill myself, because too many people still care about me. I wish people would forget about me so I could just leave. There'll probably come a point when I'm too tired to care. Hard to tell when it'll be.