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I love poetry for how beautiful it can be, I hate poetry for how cryptic it can be, I wish for simple explanations of complex feelings and ideas.

You are 100% right in your assessment and in your solution.

Man can be free only when and if he's able to rise above his insecurities

This quarter's top line might not be looking great, so gotta improve the bottom line to impress the Wall Street analysts.

Here & now, here & now, here & now, I chant in my head as that's all we have.

Yep, ASD. We are intelligent. We are perfectionists. We take our sweet time to learn about the world around us. Once we've learnt about something, we are quite sure of it, & hence we're strongly opinioniated on things we know. Stupidity, and not being able to see things correctly may even 'trigger' us, & hence we can come across as arrogant. We can see the forest for the trees, but we lose our minds because the rest of the world only sees the trees for the trees.

You sound like someone on the ASD spectrum - honest, principled, not confirming to social norms, overthinking. You had to mask to survive, yes, so obviously there is a facade, but that don't make you a thief. You are thoughtful & intelligent, & capable of using logic to steer the conversation, but that don't make you manipulative. You are honest man with morals, how can you not be kind? Why don't you consider yourself a nice person?

All labels create division, intended or not. There is oneness in all living beings, we know this when we are born, but by the age of 5, we develop our own identity, we see the you & I as separate, the haves & the have nots, & suddenly we have two-ness. Early Eastern religions also taught this.

Here's the bigger picture - or the self-actualization I have reached - you & I are the universe, on a journey that spans billions of years, we have come alive just for a few decades at most, in a way for the universe to experience itself, & experience we do, but we lack awareness of who we are (one / the universe), what we have (here & now), & what we truly yearn (experience the universe / connect with each other). Everything else is Leela, the most engaging movie or play you ever saw. It is so gripping, we can't look away, but it's just a show!

Everything disappears. What remains is that I am the universe, as are you, as are my cats, and everyone else, all alike, all a version of each other, all one, all with just a momentary lifetime of consciousness, some lucky not being bombed. But most live it being consumed by the dance of work & money & religion & relationships & fashion & pop culture & all of the social dogmas like any of that is what life is all about. When I focus & connect with my humanity, I see that none of it is real, all of it is made up, socially agreed upon, maybe even legally encoded depending on situation. The only thing real is here & now. And what we truly yearn is each other's company, ie. to 'connect with the universe'.

Hey man, it sounds like you're burnt out. You need to get out of there so you could reset your base anxiety to normal levels. You really can't get much done when you're burnt out & overwhelmed. Lists & time management tools are useless if you're under duress. Exercise, music, & hugs will help. Take your vitamins. Go for a run. And here's a virtual hug from me to you. This too shall pass, everything's gonna be alright. I know easy for me to say.

Creative people in the Reddit/Lemmy village are the geeks & intellectuals