SolarMonkey

Sooooooo back in 2008 when I lived in Houston, we got a solid inch of snow.. and the year before that when I was in California, it froze so bad the pipes burst…

I used to joke I brought the Midwest with me but it turns out it was just climate change :(

No, they are right.

All the many responses.

Just not right -in this circumstance-

Have to agree all around.

Intensely frustrating.

I spent 172 hours retrying the final boss fight on ff8. I mistakenly saved just before the end boss with 2 phoenix downs, a handful or potions and ethers, and not much else. It took weeks to beat her alone.

I learned many things in those multiple weeks of doing basically the same thing over and over again, with minor tweaks to strategy.. the first of which is always maintain a second save at least 3 hours prior to the current save. The second thing was never have an empty inventory even if you legit never bother using any of it. Don’t sell anything until you hit max stax.

And finally I learned that sometimes trying the same exact thing for the 20th time actually does work for reasons. And that was on like ps1 framework. A lot more stuff is a lot more random now.

Any tool can be used for good or bad. It’s a tool.

I’m sorry you experienced that, you shouldn’t have, but it’s not the fault of the tool, it’s the fault of those who used information improperly and abusively.

Do you think they would have come to a different conclusion with a different toolbox? Because I mean.. you have to want to be a raging pile of shit to use tools in such a way as to make you more of a raging pile of shit..

It’s the same way most of the actual helpful clinical therapy language has been co-opted by abusers. It’s not the tools, it’s the abusers that are the problem.

My plan is to get the fuck out of society and only interact as needed until the plurality wake the fuck up and do something.

I gave all my effort trying to prevent this.. I canvassed, I worked with local orgs, I was boots on the ground talking to people against my own mental health and now I’m just going to retire from society as best I can and hope for an awakening..

I just can’t anymore. I’m curious what my retired fed worker will say.. she’s always been an “I got mine” sort.. she’s my step-dads girlfriend.. I bet she still won’t see a problem with it, because well fuck it she’s retired on a nice pension and doesn’t have dependents or anything. But she’s made clear she doesn’t have anyone to take care of her and… I told her I’d do it.

But she needs to put me in her will (I didn’t inherit a dime from my mother when she does in my early 20s because of my step dad, and I won’t inherit from him because I’m not his next of kin and his gf shares all accounts, so if she doesn’t cough up my inheritance when her ass croaks, ima be super pissed…). I won’t take care of what might as well be a conservative without direct benefits. And she has a decent estate, no heirs.

It does help people identify where they have strengths and weaknesses, and has led to a larger conversation around how to communicate relative importance, even if it is a shoddy tool in and of itself.

For example, I am a touch-averse person due to a childhood full of neglect (I am avoidant attachment myself), and that means that when I do show what passes as affection, it tends to be verbal affirmations, acts of service, or gift-giving. Because that’s what I can relate to.

In a vacuum, love languages are meaningless. Sure. But as part of a whole range of self-identification strategies to learn about yourself and those you care about, it can be a valuable tool.

It doesn’t really matter who made it. You’d be appalled to discover the roots of the more formalized systems we take for granted. That’s why we never hear about those things. But they are equally shaky-grounded.

It’s going to be a weird and unstable next few years.

Supposedly this is actually not bad, but also.. just no.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XAlSWnrmtoo

Start at 10:40 or so for the hot pepper…..

actually just watch the whole thing.. it’s fucking funny.

I wish I could get my pills in bulk but I can’t. I get three new bottles every 90 days like clockwork. Sometimes I even get more! Yay!

I don’t have enough spices for them. Especially since I keep my spices in sealed glass. But if I didn’t that would be a great use!

The light idea is interesting, but you have to really like orange light, and I don’t ;)

Thanks, that’s a good use :)

I actually already have dozens for that sort of thing (as well as beads and other craft supplies, and screws and other construction-type supplies). I’ve been broken for a hot minute (have taken meds most of my life), so I have so many pill bottles. So many.

But maybe I should go ahead and keep them for my farm. I might need real organization. Fuck. Can I hire someone for that..? Fuck.

If it helps (it probably won’t).. I feel the same about Ritalin. I was on it ages 5-13, took myself off because it didn’t feel right or good (also I was on way way way too high a dose and I’m an angry tiny adult now as a result yay..) and then when I was mid 30s got rediagnosed and Rx the same fscking drug but called methylphenidate… and shockingly I don’t bother taking it because it still doesn’t help, it just makes me even more skilled at procrastination, but they won’t try anything else and I don’t have the energy to give a shit because I’ve been unmedicated this long.. fuck it.

You might want to try other drugs, they might help you, if you can get them to try something else.

Or if you’ve been unmedicated long enough to learn how to function and the drugs only help with energy to follow through, but do absolutely nothing to motivate you in the first place (as is the case for me), you can choose to take them selectively on days you want to accomplish something but don’t really care what it is.