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Wow, that escalated quicly.

lol 🤣, like "damn it man, this was my one desire in the afterlife and you fucked that up!"... and that's how sequels are born 🤣.

The kid adores me, he doesn't even go to her for... anything, he comes to me. Why? Cuz he knows I'll get down to actually doing what he wants me to do and play with him with the legos on the floor (she can't do that, she can barely walk 100m), play with water pistols, whatever. I actually don't like doing that, I would love the kid to love his mom, but he won't even go hug her, he hugs her for a split second and then runs away... and then she starts crying, weeping how he doesn't love mom, so I guilt him into going back and hugging mom "mommy loves you very much, you know this, look at how she's upset and crying... come on, go and give her a big long hug ☺️". I mean... I would really want him to love her sincerely, but I get his POV. She never plays with me, she never pays any ettention to me, she just snaps the camera at me from time to time and that's it... that is not what I asked for mom. Memories are great, but that won't compensate for the time you're supposed to spend with me here and now.

We are way passed seeking for professional help as well. We tried that once, didn't work out. She always keeps on going about my flaws, and you just feel... like shit to be honest. Like I really have no positive sides to my personality. Sure, I may be forgetful, but I've corrected most of that with using reminders. But, no, putting back the cheese on the same shelf and place where she left it seems really important 🤦. I mean... come on... she's just nitpicking, not to get to talking about the real issues. Still, I was willing to give it another try, asked her when we should schedule at the therapist, she said she thinks it's a waste of time and not to schedule. OK 🤷... hey I gave it a shot, she asked to call it off. So, now, we basically share the same therapist, just don't do couples therapy. I'm on antidepressants, she stopped taking hers a while ago 🤦... I didn't even ask why, that's how over I am this thing, I don't even fuckin' care. Now, I'm just waiting for the kid to turn 10, so we don't have to fight over custody, to file for divorce.

Living like roomates was on the table, proposed by me, she didn't accept it. She says she still loves me and that she's not willing to accept sharing me... wtf, it's not sharing if I don't give AF who you're with and neither do you. Heck, I even told her that she could bring over whoever she likes, no prob, as long as the kid is asleep or not at home (maybe at granma/granpa). I wasn't even gonna do that, but I told her she could if she wanted... nope, that would be cheating 🤦 😂... at that point I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. I tried explaining to her that this thing we have, whatever it is, it's not working. I'm not willing to divorce cuz of the kid, but she put that as the only option on the table, as long as she gets to keep our son. What? No fucking way b*tch, after everything I put into this relationship and raising our child, you get to walk away with him, not to mention he doesn't even like you? No freaking way! We stay together c*nt, whether you like it or not! Or you hand him over to me right now, and yes, we can call it quits. She said she would rather rot in prison for killing me than letting that happen.

The last part is how our "conversations" usually end, with her doing low blows and doing personal insults. I don't actually insult her, the c*nt and b*tch part is what I would actually like to say, but that's below me as a person. I believe in rationally talking about our differences and reaching a compromise. Compromise in her view is her way or the highway. She says it's not like that, but every time I thought we've reached a compromise about something, she throws a fit the next day and just throw in unrealistic conditions to the agreement we've already agreed upon. You just can't win with a person like that, period.

Yeah, my kid is about the only thing that makes me happy these days ☺️. I try and not to think about the rest, just stay positive, cuz I am a really just this happy go round positive person and a joker in general (sometimes I can cross lines, but people know me and know I'm just joking 😁, luckily it's very very rare nowadays, I've learned a few lessons since I was a teen 😂, and I apologize right after that for my big mouth 🤐). I just love joking and positive people in general. And I can't solve this problem, at least not currently, so why bother 🤷. Just do things that make you happy, ignore her as much as possible, and let life pass by. Hopefully, the future will bring better solutions.

I never said it has anything to do with capitalism.

There was a lot of talking done from my side, it never ammounted to anything... she's probably in menopause now (we're not that old, I'm 38, she's 39) cuz I haven't seen her buy any pads in about a year.

She gets to decide everything anyhow, when where, how. We haven't had sex in about a year now, since I fuckin' gave up initiating anything after being rejected time after time. She seems fine with that... she hasn't initiated anything thus far, and I just masturbate... which is getting kinda annoying to be honest... I can really see why people start cheating now.

Plus, she's like 300 lbs now... yeah, she was always fat, but not obese. She knows it's not healthy, we've hired nutricionists, spent god knows how much on them, she does the diet about a month and then just gives up "fuck, too many cucumbers, olives, whatever in this diet, I just can't take it! it tastes like shit! i give up!" 😒. I'm just really at a point where I don't even give AF. I just take care of our kid (cuz she sure as hell can't with that weight on her) and that's about it.

We've used toys before, I am all up for that, in fact, toys were my idea, but she pisses herself now verry often (like even when sitting or coughing) and she blames the toys (they are large, not giant, but larger than what a normal penis would look like) for her pissing on herself (it's the weight... she knows it, and I do as well, but she won't admit it 😒), so, toys are a no go for about 2 years now.

I can tell she has less fun, she just goes through the motions. Last time that happened (us having sex) was about a year ago. When I noticed that, I said to myself, this is the last fucking time, this shit is not what I signed up for! Great head does not compensate for having a living corpse in bed and having to use lubricants to get you wet! Fuck this!

I have talked to her about this, she either denies it completely or admits a small portion of it, and then blames me for not getting her in the mood... what in the AF am I supposed to do, I have litelarly tried everything there is, scented candles, weed, loooong foreplays, music, dinner before it all, combos of all of the above and other things as well... I just gave up, I don't have the strength or the energy on top of everything else (work, taking care of the kid, taking care of the household, cuz she doesn't do shit around the appartment, except cook from time to time, I do everything else - vacuum, clean bathroom/toalets, fix shit, fix the car, rearange things if needed, etc.)... I just can't, I worn out 😞.

About the last part, I have no objection to wearing sexy underwear, but she has to say that... I can't pull every word out of her mouth with pliers.

My thoughts as well.

Cuz different rule sets apply to different parts of the world. That and the clever naming scheme the US usually applies to make things sound not as bad or marginably better than they actually are.

I'd still drink it, fuckin' hot as hell outside!

I was thinking of the movie 😂.

https://m.imdb.com/title/tt0106308/

Army Of Darkness reference?

Cheerful lady on mobility scooter: "It doesn't much matter to me, I only go 4 miles an hour and I don't really worry very much about either!"

This one's like me 🤣.

- Gas prices went up again last night man...

- So? Doesn't make any difference to me, I still fill for a 20.

Different views about the same situation 🤷. It doesn't really bother me. I really can't do anything about it, so why bother sulking about it.

Still, you're right, the attitude towards changing to metric is all negative, except for the German guy, but that's understandable 😂.

It's only cringe if she says no and I still guess.