Check out Santo Daime. When group behavior is the reference point, your conscious choice to harmonize with the group can help relieve varieties of self-centeredness including feeling entitled, lack of connection, and internal conflict. If your experience of psychedelics is only individual exploration then you have not had a chance to appreciate their full transformative potential.
Psychedelics
Welcome to !psychedelics@lemmy.ca
This is a space to ask questions and share experiences about any and every psychedelic drug!
Community rules
-
No bigotry - including racism, sexism, ableism, homophobia, transphobia, or xenophobia.
-
Be respectful. Everyone should feel welcome here.
-
No porn.
-
No ads / spamming.
There are a couple things in your post that gives me pause. It sounds like you’re having a pretty tough time with how you feel about yourself. You say you recognize that it’s probably good to have the sobering effects but are still seeking use without that constraint.
Like mentioned by someone else, it may be a good idea to look at what the trip is telling you.
You might consider that working on why it is you feel that way could be the best way to remove it from your experience.
I think it’s entirely likely to become more introspective about your behavior on a trip. You might consider what “egotistical” even means and if the traits you see in yourself are worth changing. Thinking of one’s self positively is not inherently wrong.
To really change the feeling, you will have to change your life. Integrate what you learn into your daily life. Start small, you can’t change everything at once.
There are also things you can’t change, those you can learn to accept with time.
There’s also the alternative to suppress any bad feelings with benzodiazepines. They will dull your trip somewhat, but relief anxiety and discomfort.
it weren’t for the fact that ayahuasca tastes so fucking terrible and causes me to puke my guts out literally every single time,
Try pharmahuasca or pure extracted harmaline with pure extracted DMT instead of a jungle plant concoction. Psilocybin mushrooms and LSD are other alternatives.