Week 1/Background -> lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/8767449
Dosage:
4mg Estradiol
100mg Spironolactone
Physical effects:
After two weeks, physical changes are still minimal. My body still feels more relaxed overall, with less tension and back pain. I have been dealing with Covid for the last week, which has run me down and held me back from acomplishing some of the things I wanted to. I am finally getting past it though, and hope for a better week next week.
Mental effects:
Mentally I continue to quickly improve. I feel more aligned both internally and with the world around me. I am sleeping much better, and still having an easier time both falling asleep and getting up. It feel like the world around me is changing, even though I know it's me that is. I feel like I'm the same person in a world that fits me better. Interactions with others feel more genuine, and I'm finding it way easier to reach out and connect with others. I'm finding myself challenging some of my long held beliefs about what my weaknesses are and what I need to feel "ok" in life. I'm finding I'm almost feeling bored with some of my problems, like I've let them hold me back for too long for no real good reason, and it's time for that to change. Being slowed down by Covid has frustrated me quite a bit, I finally want to get more done in life, but physically haven't been able too. I'm looking forward to that changing and focusing on how good it is that I'm feeling motivated enough to be frustrated.
I never believed any of this was possible, yet here I am doing it. Find support, reach out, you are less alone than you think.
Melissa
I started my hormones almost three weeks ago as well. I wish they'd started me on 4mg like you, but I'm sure it will be adjusted at my 3 month check in.
It wonderful to read your thoughts and feel as if they are my own in such a way. Its actually very helpful, as past trauma and temporarily untreated ADHD make reflection to a similar level a real challenge for me, so thank you.
A couple of weeks prior to my HRT start date, I stumbled upon an app that I've firmly incorporated into my upwards trend of positive mental health choices, as well as specificlaly my transition. Its called Daily You (Android Repo, Available on Fdroid). Its a privacy friendly, and simple way to do a daily journal/Photo log/emotional log. I use it to take a selfie every night, and occasionally add a 1-2 sentence entry. There are more feature rich apps, but I've always found myself unable to commit to those daily for very long. I've not missed a day yet, and I know despite my mirror/pic shyness, I'll be happy to at least have them for myself.
Thanks for the suggestion and kind words! It's helpful hearing others are having similar experiences, it makes it feel more legitimate in a way. Sometimes I worry that its all a placebo and I'm just convincing myself this is helping me. It feels different than times in the past where improvements have been temporary though, like something fundamental is shifting into the right place.