I've been there myself many times. I've had those dark days when the one-way out option seems like the only possible solution. Even going to far as to give my things away and make a list about what I was planning to do, I had it all ready to go.

But one day I just got sick of being unhappy and beating myself up when truthfully it wasn't anything I was doing, but other people that were making my life miserable.

From then I quit. I quit the relationship and I quit my 8 to 5 job (we don't have 9 to 5 here in Utah) and I let the chips fall where they may. And I found out, I can stand on my own feet.

I think you've got the strength to survive and succeed, or you would't have made it this far. You have what I do - a kind of adult ADHD where nothing seems to satisfy your needs for long, and doing one thing over and over just doesn't cut it.

All I can say is that indulging myself in my interests, even if they change moment to moment, has really helped. I know that's not a luxury everyone has, but hopefully you can still finds ways to indulge yourself and tell your inner judges to shut the hell up already.

Best of luck with it all, and feel free to hit me up with you need more kind words!!