Sincerely apologize if this is the wrong place for such a question(/rant).
The context of the question relates to "Self" and maybe about "Power" in general.
I'm assuming the following maxims hold true:
- Unexamined life not worth living...
- Philosophy is lived. Choices primarily determine your philosophy
Please to correct my assumptions or reasoning. Can elaborate on above if needed.
I tend to myself in circles regarding the importance of philosophizing and examining my life. Maybe it's a symptom of some mental issue.. With every new idea I learn, I now have to consider it and balance it with all I've learnt in the past. Each choice becomes a battle of value systems and ideas and perspectives and constraints. It's tiring to the point where I try not to think and just "do".
But then that path leads me to an autopilot where my choices fall to my default "human" state overridden by the philosophy modules installed at the time. Then it devolves into the unexamined life. Or then life throws a curveball. I have to snap out of it and need to reassess everything going into the philosophizing state above.
Philosophy feels like an indulgence.
I'm guessing this pendulum is not new. On a global scale, Academia are cutting philosophy department budgets as it's easier to divert money to "actionable" disciplines. No point in "wasting" time in thinking about thinking about doing things. Who needs a meta-compass if we need to walk the distance anyway (even though it helps a tremendous deal if the compass is in the right hands (which hold the power)).
I know I've reduced the argument to 2 buckets. I'm currently trying to consume Zen literature trying to get rid of my buckets and/or/xor trying to bring harmony of various buckets in my life.. (https://tinyurl.com/verse20)
My question is: how do you manage all this philosophizing in your life? How useful is this indulgence?
Happy to accept any books/articles on this. Thank you.
You've dug my hole deeper but have also given me a shovel to help me dig out. The shovel being "don't be too hard on yourself" and that succinct Hume quote. I would also have accepted a ladder!
There is effort required in thinking and examining. I, being imperfect and sadly not a juggernaut, waste so much energy trying to cast out the human suffering in my soul. So much energy... until, as I have mentioned, I give up and then just try go with the flow (for better and worse).
For a particular problem (including existential woes), I research and read and consume until I'm left with labels, different perspectives and much more counter perspectives. So many fancy words but little nourishment unless I consume a lot and spend equal time discarding notions. It can't just be me.
Maybe I'll narrow my question. Do you read philosophy to inform all aspects of your life? Or have you let the program run in the background? As you mentioned Heidegger.. does your pendulum swing freely and if so, how fast? (Maybe that's what the phrase "How's it hanging?" refers to.. huh.)
Philosophy has changed my life.
I studied philosophy in university but also read it vociferously before and after university. It informs my perspective on everything. Lately I've gone a few years without reading too much philosophy, which is something that has not happened since I first began reading it in high school which happened half a lifetime ago for me but I had some things happen and I didn't have the same energy or attunement for it. I think life comes in flows or rhythms so I try not to worry about it as I used to. I try to get my nourishment from films I can analyze philosophically and it also helps me that I am religious and gain consolation from that—although not in the way most are, and I don't attend any sort of church or anything. I am also more inclined towards my social life, but my social life is filled with people who are very similarly philosophically inclined. Even if they don't read it or know it, they live it, and being around people like that satisfies me. I will go back to philosophy when the time is right, or rather philosophy will come back to me.
Levinas thought it was not the role of philosophy to provide consolation for the soul, and reserved that for religion. Sometimes religion leads us to philosophy and sometimes philosophy leads us to religion. I am fortunate enough to have experienced both in that order.
You may feel lost right now but it's more likely, from what I see in your writings, that you are already on your path but you just don't see it yet. We all take different paths and some are more difficult than others but you have the strength to walk it, or to find another if this path is leading you away from yourself. But the suffering of the soul does not necessarily mean you are on the wrong path, it may very well mean you are on the right path. And you are laying good groundwork for yourself but don't forget that we also are material beings and it is important to live our existence with others in a way that is fulfilling for ourselves and others. We cannot just think about it, it is just important for us to decide how to do it and then most importantly to do it.
Thank you for sharing. I love the "philosophy will come back to me" line.
Forgive my analogies.. it's almost as if you're using "Philosophy" as a map. Your initial studies helped you draw it up and kinda internalize it. Now you know roughly know where you are going and your community also help you not get lost. If you do lose way, you'll peek at the map, tweak it as per your surroundings and keep walking. It feels like you've found a nice ratio and I pray you find your footing in each step.
My initial analogy of equating philosophy to a compass was a little lacking. It's more relatable to Faith... Now I'm of the opinion I haven't read enough!
I'm my case, I'm kinda sure what path I'm on but I end up constantly peeking/tweaking at my map and then end up getting lost as I'm not looking up. It seems a balance is possible but need to go over that initial hurdle of drawing the map first. And as you mentioned, it's important to keep walking the uphill walk, even if simply on faith.