Voidpunk

We are radqueer and also voidpunk, and I think our radqueer identity feels more related to our relationship with voidpunk than our non-human identity. Like, there many non-humans we come across on the Internet, most of whom wouldn't dare stray from human mores. Non-humans in human society tend to play the human game, it seems. In the radqueer community though, I see a radical departure from the general laws that have stifled us throughout our lives. Being radqueer really connects me to my non-humanity more than anything else. It is beautiful. Thank you for being here.

We are working to unlearn a lot. Ideally, we want to be above all the discourse. We want to identify as anything without guilt, be a part of whatever communities we want, not worry about what is considered healthy for humans, and consider our thoughts and feelings as divine authority. We aren't there yet, not consistently anyway, but we hope to be in that mindset when we can.

Very glad to have found this subculture/community. I've actually been thinking about how non-humanity/voidness relates to us as a system and to me in my own spiritual journey, and I guess I'm gonna use this space to excrete some thoughts. Consider this a stream of consciousness.

The brutality we faced as a chronological kid up to the present in relation to our (neuro)queerness caused us not only to develop DID, but we apparently internalized it to such a degree that all but one of our current alters (that we know of) are non-human.

I identify with the body, and it took quite a long time for me to realize our DID, so in addition to discovering that I am symbolically represented as a non-human in our inner world, I also came to internalize my monstrousness as a map.

This latter move was very much conscious, if involuntary. I was used to being hated as a chronological youth because I deliberately sabotaged any potential friendships. I didn't want to be close to others and I didn't want others to be close to me. But I knew that, on the inside, I could be sure I was good, and that someday, when things were better, my goodness would be valued and recognized. And for a brief moment, I thought I had succeeded, only a handful of years ago.

Then I came out as a map, and suddenly it didn't matter what I thought or what I did or what politics I fought for. I was dangerous, sick, not human. I was no longer a person with agency, but a force to be feared, fundamentally obscure, hostile, cthonic. I suppose it isn't even clear that what I represent can be stopped, as there is no clear political struggle against me, only reaction. Like an eldritch horror, I am only capable of evoking terror and revulsion in the sane, and my acolytes are the insane, lost, lustful libertines who can no more relate to society than I can represent its future.

That's when I started kinning the eldritch abyss itself. Even if I wanted to be, I'm not human. But if I am not constrained by the bounds of the human, I am free to be something that breaks the limits of humanity. If my simple nature strikes terror into humanity, so be it. My world is beyond anything they're capable of imagining and I will live my world because I am incapable of anything else. I don't want domination and limitation; I am libertinage, chaos and mania.

[The image is a faceless fish and the caption reads faceless fish. This has been faceless fish.]

• Undefined
• Redacted
• Ancient
• Inaccesible
• Archaic
• Illegal
• Out of stock
• Expired
• Omitted
• No new messages
• Hollow
• Vanished
• Error
• Translucent
• Deleted
• Timeless
• Forgotten
• Removed
• Ajar
• Erased
• Paused
• Extinct
• Installed
• Uninstalled
• Compromised

Talking in Inverted Alphabet brings me much alien euphoria!

A=Z B=Y C=X D=W E=V F=U G=T H=S I=R J=Q K=P L=O M=N

Example: R zn zm Zorvm = I am an Alien.

Dsl dzmgh gl gzop rm Rmevigvw Zokszyvg drgs nv?

[The caption reads "Therapist: Cabbage alien isn't real he can't hurt you - Cabbage alien: " The image plonked below is of a red cabbage, it is cut in half and its stems and leaves are oddly shaped like a multi-limbed alien.]

[The image is of a quiz results screenshot. The results of this "Free Online Gender Quiz" were "The Inky Void Between Stars". The description reads "Your gender is the void that exits between celestial bodies. It is not completely empty, but consists of a hard vacuum containing a low density of particles, predominantly a plasma of hydrogen and helium as well as electromagnetic radiation, magnetic fields, neutrinos, dust and cosmis rays".]

[The image is of a black and white silhouetted depiction of the evolutionary line of homo sapiens, which slowly morphs into a barcode. The captions reads "Reject humanity, become barcode".]

[The image is a twitter screenshot. There are 3 doors that look similar and are similarly spaced apart. They're labeled "Ladies", "Men", and "237-S". The captions reads "ah yes the three genders".]

The Voidpunk Reddit has always been the one I felt I could express myself the most, so I thought I'd recreate it here!