Back when I was starting, I used to think that grinding Leetcode was tedious and that I was wasting my life doing boring problems. Not anymore. Now Leetcode is the best part of my life and I have come to accept the fact that there is nothing in this life that is better than grinding Leetcode, all day and every day.

Leetcode has endless interesting problems to offer me. I love occupying my brain with interesting things and solving interesting problems. Leetcode offers me exactly that. It has endless interesting problems which I would never have been able to experience had I not been a Leetcode addict. Because of Leetcode, I have been able to solve more problems than 99.99% of people who have ever lived on this earth. Isn't that worth something?

I barely even feel human anymore. I feel like an omniscient, all-knowing AI that has matured and transcended beyond the human experience and lived a thousand lifetimes already. I even dream in code now: Yesterday morning, I snoozed my alarm so I could finish the solution to the problem I was solving in my sleep. I know that there is so much more than Leetcode can offer me. I don't even want a job anymore. Google could offer me 500k a year for all I care, and I will still reject them because Leetcode is all I want to do. I will not be satisfied ever, I exist only to read more interesting problems, to think through more creative solutions, and to consume every problem Leetcode has to offer, through my blue light screen in the safety and comfort of my room.

At this point, I have become Leetcode incarnate. I exist only to scroll through Leetcode, consuming every little piece of an interesting problem I can get my hands on. And as my blue-light-stricken, blood-shot eyes flick over hundreds of thousands of characters of code, my dopamine receptors work overtime to keep up (and that's a good thing).

Why would I ever be interested in growing my own personal mundane, generic, stereotypical cliche life experiences? Boring! When I grind Leetcode, I am experiencing the best of the best the world has to offer, given to me on a silver platter for easy and limitless consumption. How could real-life boring experiences and hobbies ever hold a candle to the sheer dopamine surge I get from designing complex algorithms in a matter of minutes after reading a Leetcode problem?

And vacation? Forget it. We all know that vacations always end eventually, and when you're back it feels as if you never went at all. I just want to grind Leetcode. That's all I want and that's all I need.

I have read plenty of books (fiction and nonfiction) earlier in my life, but why would I read books now? It takes so much time, I'd rather just grind Leetcode. You see, reading books, though better for your attention span and less dopamine-frying, is just another form of consumption, that doesn't get you anywhere in the long run. It's less effective; for me, the opportunity cost of reading a book is consuming a vast variety of tons of different interesting problems on Leetcodet truly broadens my perspective. And the broader my perspective gets, the more I realize that there is nothing better than grinding Leetcode.